Oggi sono io.

Come promesso, ho voluto mettere nero su bianco dei reminder semplici e concisi per il nuovo anno. Niente effetti speciali, niente di irrealizzabile, niente di irrealistico. Ho imparato che pensare troppo fa male e soprattutto pensare troppo in grande. Ho imparato che riconoscere i miei limiti, studiarli, accettarli e superarli è un processo lungo. Ho imparato ad avere pazienza. Ho imparato ad aspettare. Sto imparando a fare i conti con i miei difetti ed abbracciarli. Sto imparando a fare pace con il mio passato. Sto imparando a godermi ogni giorno come se fosse unico. Sto imparando a sorridere ai miei nemici. Sto imparando a perdonare e andare avanti. Voglio imparare un nuovo lavoro. Voglio alzare i miei obiettivi a livello fisico. Voglio superare i miei limiti mentali. Voglio trovare l'Amore, quello incondizionato, non di ruolo. Voglio abbattere i miei tabù. Sembrano imprese titaniche, sembrano le solite frasi fatte da fine anno, quando promettiamo agli altri e mentiamo a noi ste...

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Hinterland of Milan (Italy),  Sunday 17th May 2020 Another bad week is finally gone. Trust me, this week was AWFUL. I don't want to bother you, but for the first time in 29 years I really felt disappointed of being a woman. Why? I know, I've worked a lot on myself, I started loving myself the way I am and I'm my biggest fan,  but sometimes you've to face the fact that, with a dick everything would be much easier. You're driving? You're doing it wrong, 'cause you're a woman. You want a promotion? Please, get married or buy another cat. You want to buy your own house? So you're single, right? No man? Just you? You want to travel the world? Watch out, it's dangerous for a girl out there. I could continue for hours. In my case, I'm litterally fighting for my own right to have my apartment ready asap. What's the problem? Well, the problem is that since I'm a young girl I can be "paused" instead other "male" clients can...

Here we are, all locked out in our houses,  small apartments or two floor villas. With or without company. Surrounded by our loved ones or perfect strangers. Learning fast, how to spend time with ourselves. Isn't it strange? In 2020 our biggest fear appeares to be being alone in a pandemic:  scary right? Being forces to pretend that you like yourself, you like being alone, you like reading books,  you like training in front of a computer or asking Alexa a good movie to watch. But what are we waiting for? Do we really need a pandemic to understand how precious our time is? How much do we have to love ourselves and our interests and passions first? Well,  I've worked hard in the past to develop my confidence, my selflove. It was painful, spending time alone, in an empty house, without family and friends there, ready to talk to you or even to fight for no reason. I remember that time. I've never felt so lonely. But time encouraged me to ...